My life was a typical teenager’s life. Basically having fun with friends and studying. I even had a really good and loving family of three, me, my mom, and my dad. Because of work, my dad had to travel a lot and that’s why my mom and I were best friends. We talked about everything with each other, every small detail. I was one weird person lost in their own world but somehow got blessed with amazing family and friends. My friends always gossiped about them liking boys or girls but I never liked anyone or was interested in any of the gossip. My friends always teased me with someone’s name but I always was indifferent. I never cared about it. I sometimes liked someone but was never crazy as how my friends were for their crush. I always thought I would never get a bf or I will never have any crush but this thinking of mine took a drastic change.

I lived in a quiet neighborhood but the people were really good towards each other. The most ideal neighborhood I had ever seen in my life. Our next-door neighbor Mrs. Jenner had shifted back to their village after the death of her husband Mr. Jenner so the house that they lived in was empty. One day while returning back home from school I heard my mom’s voice coming from Mrs. Jenner’s house so I went there and my mom introduced me to the new neighbors. The Scott family, they were a family of four, Mr. Scott and Mrs. Scott and their 4-year-old daughter Oliva, and their son Oliver who was the same age as me. They were one of the sweetest people and were welcoming. While my mom and Mrs. Scott were talking a small cute little girl from a distance came running towards us shouting mom and behind her came a tall, handsome guy with blue eyes and a well-maintained body. The moment I saw him coming from a distance I got this weird feeling inside me, I was confused as I had never felt this way before. I started feeling butterflies in my stomach. But before I could talk to him I heard my dad calling me from our house so I had to excuse myself and go back home. I wanted to talk to him but I was too nervous. The whole night I could not sleep and caught myself blushing every time I thought of him. When I took a look at my clock it was 2am but I needed to talk to my mom before I could get up and go to her room. She came inside my room and asked why I was overjoyed after I had come from the neighbor’s house. I told her everything and asked what that feeling was about and why it happened all of sudden. She replied that I might have a crush on him. And told me everything she knew about the new boy. I was excited to know that I had a crush but decided to keep it a secret with my friends. The next morning when I went downstairs for breakfast my mom told me that she wanted to invite the Scott family for dinner on Friday night and asked me to go invite them for dinner as I was going to their place I got a feeling that my mom might have only called them for dinner just because I could talk with the new kid. When I reached their house I rang the doorbell and heard a small girl’s voice saying “I will open the door, I will open the door” so she was the one to open the door, when I asked her for her mother she went inside and told her mother “The pretty neighbor that Oliver likes is here.” I was shocked but happy too and probably looked like a tomato because I started blushing so hard but who would not. Soon after Mrs. Scott came to the door and I pretended like I knew nothing and invited them for dinner and excused myself and rushed back home. I went to my mother and told her everything, she too was excited about it (Every time I mentioned a boy she always got excited). I went to school happily and while walking through the lobby I crashed into someone when I saw who it was. It gave me chills all over my body, it was Oliver. I got up and ran from there and never gave him a chance to talk. I was sitting alone in a cafeteria because my friends were busy gossiping about boys and this was the time my friends were okay if I was alone. I saw Oliver coming towards me and I pretended like I did not see him. He came near me and asked if the seats were taken and I replied no so he sat down there. I got butterflies all over my body again. Oliver apologized for crashing into me and I too apologized to him. It was awkward. When he was about to talk to me my friends called me and I was thankful for them and I left. Friday evening I was helping my mom cook dinner when she asked me to go and get dressed. By the time I got ready, they were already at my house. I went downstairs but I could not see Oliver there. I was sad so I greeted the guest and called my mom inside the kitchen and asked where Oliver was when she said that he could be here any minute now and left the kitchen. The moment she left the kitchen the doorbell rang and my mom asked me to open the door so I opened it. There he was dressed in a black shirt and black pants which made him look really handsome. When he saw me he asked me “Aren’t you the girl I crashed with the other day?’’ but I replied in sarcasm and said “No she is my twin sister.'' We both laughed and he came inside. My mom asked me to take Oliva to our garden and Oliver joined us too where we played hide and seek and every time Oliva won. We were all sitting down when Oliver asked me “By the way what is your name?” and I replied “Anna”. But I did not ask him his name but I knew he expected me to ask. He himself introduced him to me. We were just randomly chatting about school and other random things when my mom called for dinner. We went and ate. After that they left, I was really happy knowing how much of a sweet guy he truly was. I obviously told my mom about it but she did not seem that happy and when I asked her what was wrong she replied that she was tired. I knew something was off but I decided to let her sleep. From that day whenever I mentioned Oliver my mom seemed off so I stopped telling her about him. Mr. and Mrs. Scott asked me and Oliver to babysit Oliva which also helped  Oliver and me to get really close and we became inseparable best friends who did everything together. People even started shipping us but we both always denied it but  I started developing more and more feelings for him but never confessed to him. It was my 18th birthday and my mom had organized a big party for me. In front of everyone, I decided to confess my feelings for Oliver. After cutting the cake we were dancing when I suddenly took the mic and announced “Hello everyone thank you for coming and today I stand here to announce something in front of everyone that I have hidden for the past 6 months. I am here to confess my feelings for someone who I truly loved, Oliver.” He came in front of me and said “ I am sorry Anna. I never have thought about you more than best friends. I know you have liked me from the first day you saw me but I would never like you more than best friends because I have a girlfriend.” I was completely shattered and heartbroken after all those months when I asked him if he had a girlfriend but he always replied no, so this broke me. If I even once mentioned his girlfriend I would have held myself to not falling for him anymore. I also had heard him telling his friend that he liked me. The reason I was sure that he liked me was that he mentioned that she goes to the same school we go to and her name is Anna and I was the only girl named Anna in our school. Just before confessing to him, I talked with his family about everything and they made sure that he liked me back. I ran to my room, locked my door and went to take a shower because it always healed me. I went to school the next day and thankfully everyone pretended as if nothing happened. I avoided Oliver at all costs. My mom again invited the Scott family for dinner and I was not bothered because Mrs. Scott and my mom were best friends. I did not want Oliver to come but he came throughout the dinner. He tried talking to me but I never gave him the chance to.

The next morning was Saturday and I woke up to my mom saying goodbyes and wishing a safe journey to someone. When I went to see who she was talking to I saw a big Uhaul truck in front of Oliver’s house. I started tearing up but went to ask my mom what was happening when she said that they were moving to somewhere else. She always knew that they would move after 6 months and that’s the reason she always replied coldly whenever I talked about Oliver. I asked where Oliver was and ran up to him and hugged him really tightly but he did not hug me back. He was confused and asked why I was hugging him when I hated him and I told him “Okay then I will go” and when I was about to get away from him, he hugged me back. He tried to explain the reasons for his action but I stopped him. And before I knew he was inside his uber ready to leave. I was thankful that I found out really and got a chance to talk to him for the last time. This was the last time I was with him but I have never been able to forgive him till today. I miss him till today. I crave the best friend I have. The times I spent with him and the memories we made.

He just came into my life and suddenly disappeared when I needed him. This part of my life taught me to never be angry at someone for a longer period of time and always forgive and listen to their side of the story too.
 

“मुना ! ए मुना ! काँ गइछे । यो केटी फेरि । मुना ! ए  मुना ! ” मनमायाले आफनी बुहारीलाई बोलाइरहेकी थिइन्। मुना भने उसको छाेरा रोहणलाई दुध पिलाउँदै थिई। आमाले बाेलाएकाे सुनेर  आफनो बच्चालाई बोकी हतार हतार घरकाे तल्लाे तला गई। तल पुगेपछि त्यहाँ उसले आमा रिसाएको देखी। मनमायाले मुना तल आएको देखेपछि मुनालाई टेढाे आँखाले हेरिन्। उसलाई यस्तो तरिकाले हेरेपछि मुना डराइन् । “मैले तँलाई धेरैपटक बोलाएँ, तैले सुुनिनस्। बहिरो भइस कि क्या हो।” मनमायाले आफ्नो बच्चा बोकेकी मुनालाई साह्रै नरमाइलो तरिकाले  गाली गरिन्। “म बाबुलाई दुध खुवाउँद‌ै थिएँ, त्यसैले तपाईंले बोलाएको सुनिन। मलाई माफ गर्नुहोस् आमा।” मुनाले उदास अनुहार पारेर भनिन्, "आमा मलाई किन बोलाउनु भाको होला। "
"जा, मेरो र बाबाको लुगा धुइदे त। "उनले रुखो बोली बाेल्दै  मुनालाई काम लगाइन्। मुनाले आफ्नो बाबुलाई हेर्नु छ पनि भन्न सकिनन्। बरु फेरि गाली खानुभन्दा त काम नै गर्दिन्छु भनेर उसले मनमनै सोच्यो।  मुनाले आफ्नो छोरालाई काँधमा बोकेर भए पनि घरको सबै काम सकिदिइन् । मुनाले धेरै काम गरेकाले थाकिन्। त्यसमाथि उसलाई बाबुले धेरै सतायो।  आमालाई छोरा हेरिदिनुस भन्न नि सकिनन् । आमाबुबालाई मुना र उसको बच्चाको बारेमा केही मतलब छैन।  मुनालाई अर्जुनले  आमाबुबालाई नभने बिहे गरेर घर लिएर आएको थियो।  यो कुराले अर्जुनका आमा बुबा खुसी थिएनन् ।  अर्जुन भने श्रीमती ल्याएर  काम गर्न विदेश गयो। विदेश गएपछि उसलाई विदेशकै लोभ लाग्यो।  उसले विदेश गएको ५ महिनामै मुनालाई बिर्सियो।  मुना गर्भवती हुँदा उसको कसैले हेरचाह गरेनन् ।  अर्जुनसँग विवाह गरेकोमा ऊ निकै नै पछुताई ।  कतै कतै त उसले अर्जुनले  विदेशमा अर्कैसँग बिहे गरेको पनि सुनेको थियाे । अर्जुनले आफ्नो आमाबुबालाई मात्र घर खर्च पठाउँथ्याे ।  दिन बित्दै गयो, रोहण पनि ठुलो हुँदै गयो।  त्यसैगरी ७ वर्ष बित्यो। मुना र रोहण त्यही  घरमा दु:ख सहेर बसे ।  तर एकदिन मुनाले अर्जुन एक्कासी नेपाल आएको थाहा पायो।  अर्जुन घर आइपुग्यो।  मुना खुसी भइन् तर त्यो खुसी  एकछिन मात्र थियाे ।  अर्जुनले आफूसँग अर्को केटी पनि लिएर आएको रहेछ।  मुना यो देखेर साह्रै  नै दुखी भइन् ।  आफ्नो लाेग्नेले सौता लिएर आउँदा  कसको चित्त दुख्दैन र ।  घरमा उसलाई धेरै नै काम लगाउन थाल्यो । अर्जुनले झन् उमा लै कुट्न थाल्यो  ।  धेरै नै भएपछि मुना आफ्नो छाेराे रोहणलाई लिएर माइती घरमा भागी । उसले एउटा सानो कोठा पाई । त्यहाँ बसी र मजदुर गर्न थालिन् ।  रोहण नजिकैको एउटा विद्यालयमा पढ्न  थाल्यो ।  रोहणको पढाइ धेरै राम्रो थियो। रोहण ठुलो हुँदै गयो।  मुनाले उसको छोराृ्े रोहणले धेरै दुख र सङ्घर्षले पाल्यो। रोहण ठुलो भएर ठुलो व्यापारी बन्यो। पछि गएर ठुलाे कम्पनीकाे मालिक बन्याे ।  आफ्ना लागि ठुलो घर बनायाे । आमाछाेरा आरामले   बस्न थाले । मुनाले आफ्नो मिहिनेतको फल पाइन् ।  पारिवारिक तथा व्यक्तिगत समस्या भाेगेकी मुनाले अन्ततः छाेराकाे लगनशिलता र सङ्घर्षले सुखमयी जीवन बिताइन् ।

    वर्तमान अवस्थामा नेपालमा भने धेरै समस्याहरू देखा परेका छन् । हुन त हरेक  देशहरूमा एउटा न एउटा न समस्या हुन्छ नै । नेपालमा भने धेरै नै समस्याहरू छन्, जस्तै:- पानीकाे श्राेत भए पनि सही सदुपयाेग नहुँदा जताततै खानेपानीकाे समस्या देखिनु, आयआर्जन कम हुँदा आर्थिक समस्या हुनु, गाँउघरमा  पर्याप्त सुविधा नहुनु, जल्दाेबल्दाे समस्याका रूपमा  रहेकाे काेराेना र  डेंगु राेग, अत्याधिक मात्रामा बेराेजगारी समस्या र व्यक्तिगत स्वार्थमा राष्ट्रिय सम्पतिकाे चरम दुरूपयाेग आदि रहेका छन् ।  बढ्दाे बेराेजगारीका कारण तथा राेजगार भए पनि जीवन जीउन कठिन हुने भएकाले धेरै नेपालीहरूले नेपाल छोडेर अरू देशमा जानुपर्ने एउटा ठुलाे समास्या बनेकाे छ । नेपालमा राम्रो पारिश्रमिक नभएको कारण विदेशमा गएर पसिना बगाउनु बाध्यता बनेकाे छ । गाँउघरमा हुनुपर्ने जति सुविधा नभएकाे देखिन्छ, जस्तै:- सबैकाे पहुँचमा अस्पताल नहुनु, विद्यालय नहुनु,  पानी लिन पनि ३ देखि ४ घण्टासम्म हिँडेर जानुपर्ने अवस्था हुनु, यातायातकाे सुविधा भनेजस्ताे नहुनु आदि । गाँउघरमा अस्पताल नजिक नहुँदा तत्काल उपचारकाे गर्नुपर्ने अवस्थामा समस्या सिर्जना हुने गर्दछ। यातायातकाे साधन तथा सडककाे व्यवस्थापन उचित नहुँदा सर्वसाधारणकाे लागि कठिन हुँदै गएकाे छ । नेपालमा कोरोना राेगकाे समस्या सुल्झेकाे जस्ताे देखिए पनि सङ्क्रमण दर बढ्दै गएकाे समाचारमा सुनिन्छ। तर अहिले फेरि नयाँ जल्दाेबल्दाे डेंगु भन्ने रोग आएको छ । त्यो लामखुट्टेकाे टाेकाइबाट लाग्ने  एउटा सरुवा रोग हो जुन पाेथी लामखुट्टेकाे टाेकाइबाट सर्दछ । नेपालको अर्काे समस्या भने भनेको गरिबी रहेको छ। कोरोनापछि नेपालमा धेरै मानिसहरू गरिबीकाे समस्याबाट पिराेलिएका छन् । नेपाल अहिले अत्यन्तै नाजुक अवस्थामा छ किनकि विकासाेन्मुख देशमा हुने ठुलो भ्रष्टचारका कारण विकासका कामहरू ठप्प छन्। कानुनको कमजोर कार्यान्वयनका कारण देशका नेताहरूले त्यसको पूरा फाइदा उठाउँदै देशको विकास गर्नुको सट्टा आफ्नै व्यक्तिगत जीवन विकास गर्न व्यस्त छन्। नेपालमा देखिएका यस्ता समस्याहरूलाई हामी सबै मिलेर समाधानकाे बाटाेतर्फ केन्द्रित हुन आवश्यक देखिन्छ ।

She walked down the street 
With confidence and her beauty 
Everyone liked at her 
and acted the way she pleased

Flawless smile and shiny hair 
With pretty eyes and pretty lies 
She was the perfection; the perfect girl 
a precious and graceful pearl  

But no one knew the actual miss perfect 
who was arrogant and filled with contempt 
Everyone saw her perfect side  
But in actual she was a devil, 
hiding inside 

Acting less human 
and more like a barbie doll 
Wealth, attention and perfection 
she wanted them all

She couldn’t have them 
Not all at once 
So she glanced in the mirror 
To see, of what she had become

She wanted to change 
And end it all 
For she wanted her own life 
Where she was real and not fake at all
 

I love the river,
And the noise it makes,
It really fascinates me,
Seeing the only path it takes.

The trees are nearby,
And so are the birds chirping,
And behind the trees,
I can see the deers lurking.

The view is mesmerizing,
And so are the sounds that follow,
I can hear the the happiness of the animals,
And the sounds of sorrow.

The battery is done,
The machine has stopped working,
The world has gone quiet,
The time has stopped ticking.

I can’t see the deer,
I can’t hear where it went lurking,
I can see the birds,
But I can’t hear them chirping.

The music of the river,
Is no longer there,
The sounds of the animals,
I can no longer hear.
 

हे मानिस ! 
जब ईश्वरको अस्तित्व थाहा छैन तिमीलाई  
तब तिमी पुण्यका लागि किन मर्छौ ? 
जब धर्म धर्म भन्दाभन्दै यता उति दौडन्छौ 
तब धर्मको नाममा लास किन बिछ्याउँछौ तिमी

हे मानिस ! 
भन्छौ बुद्धका छोराछोरी हौँ हामी 
तर हातमा खुकुरी बोकी र 
कागजका केही शब्द पढी 
शुद्ध हुन खोज्छौ तिमी

हे मानिस ! 
दुखी र असहायको अगाडी 
आँखा चिम्लिन्छौ तिमी 
तर अदृश्य शक्तिको खोजीमा 
रुन्छौ किन तिमी 
हे मानिस ! 
आफ्नै भाइलाई चोट पुऱ्याएर
आमाको चरणलाई पुज्छौ तिमी
आफ्नै भाइको हत्या गरेर 
अमृत सरी माया हत्याउन खोज्छौ तिमी

हे मानिस ! 
एक्लो मानिसको सुखका लागि 
कयौँको खुसी लुट्छौ तिमी 
यतिसम्म गरेर पनि 
रातमा आरामले निदाउँछौ कसरी तिमी    
रातमा आरामले निदाउँछौ कसरी तिमी ।।

I think we might all heard the term “cultural appropriation” but do we actually know how to recognize cultural appropriation? To recognize cultural appropriation we should first know what exactly is cultural appropriation and what qualifies as cultural appropriation. 
Cultural appropriation is using elements and norms of an oppressed community whilst stereotyping them and not giving the community credit for what they did. It's in a way like stealing someone's art. It would be considered stolen if the person wasn't credited properly or wasn't asked consent for posting their art. Obviously, not everything is cultural appropriation but there are lines drawn between cultural appreciation and appropriation.
Cultural appreciation and cultural appropriation are two very different things. Cultural appreciation is respecting the culture and borrowing things like norms from the culture while giving them credit. Cultural appreciation is healthy for both parties involved and doesn't harm anyone. 
Why is cultural appropriation a problem? Cultural appropriation is a huge issue for obvious reasons. Everything that happens today is in some way related to history. If that's the case then doing something that signified pain and discrimination against a certain community isn't cool nor is it funny. 
Here are some things that can be taken as examples for cultural appropriation: artifacts, certain dance moves, clothing, music, language, decorations, hairstyle, tattoos, cultural practices, etc. If in some way we take and completely credit ourselves (steal)  for one of the above things taken from another culture it’s considered cultural appropriation. There are many more things that can be considered cultural appropriation but these are just a few. Some cases of cultural appropriation in the world are: Voguing and Rock ‘N’ Roll. Voguing was a dance that was made popular by Madonna during the 1990s. Many people think Madonna invented it but in reality voguing originated from gay clubs in New York and the Balck members of the LGBTQ+ community were the first to use it. Just like that Rock ‘N’ Roll was a music genre created by black musicians but in the 1950s claimed to have invented this genre of music. The black musicians never got credit for their invention and nor did they ever get to perform their invention.
How can we avoid cultural appropriation? We could avoid cultural appropriation if we question our actions and then only act upon it. Giving credit to the community or person you got that idea from is also a very important key to avoid cultural appropriation. Before doing something from a certain culture it’s best to learn more about it and know what wouldn’t and wouldn’t offend the community. If we learn more about different cultures it’s rare to culturally appropriate something. So the key to avoiding cultural appropriation is to learn about different cultures.
Cultural appropriation is never funny to the people of the community. It’s not funny in general either. In fact, it can be considered stupid and ignorant. If sometimes you think you might’ve been involved in culture appropriation it’s best to ask a member of the community you think you might’ve offended. Instead of being too proud to ask or learn we should correct our mistakes and not do it again. Cultural appropriation is serious and shouldn’t be taken lightly.
 

एक ठाउँबाट अर्को ठाउँमा जानको लागि हामीलाई यातायातको उचित सुविधा चाहिन्छ। फराकिलाे तथा सुविधायुक्त सडककाे आवश्यक हुन्छ । सार्वजनिक वाहनहरू राम्रो अवस्थामा हुनुपर्छ। सहरमा बस्दा हामीले राम्रो यातायातको सुविधा पाएका छौँ र गाउँकाे तुलनमा  सडकको अवस्था ठिक हुन्छ । आज पनि गाउँमा यातायातको पर्याप्त मात्रामा  सुविधा छैन । नेपालको  दुर्गम ठाउँमा मानिसहरूले एक ठाउँबाट अर्काे ठाउँमा जान धेरै दुःख पाइरहेका छन् । 

यातायातकाे सुविधा नभएको कारणले गर्दा मानिसहरूले दिनभरि हिँडेर भए पनि आफ्नाे गन्तव्यमा पुग्नुपर्ने अवस्था रहेकाे छ । अलिकति सुविधा भएकाे ठाँउमा सवारी साधन आउन  लामो समय कुर्नु पर्ने अवस्था हुन्छ। गाउँघरतिर त अझ राम्रो बाटो पनि हुँदैन। गाउँका सडकमा प्रायः खाल्डाखुल्डीले भरिएका हुन्छन् । जनतालाई सार्वजनिक सवारी साधनको उचित सुविधा उपलब्ध गराउने प्रयास गरे पनि सबैभन्दा ठूलो समस्या सडकको खराब अवस्था वा समयमै मर्मत सम्भार हुन नसक्नु हो । मानिसहरू आफ्नो गन्तव्यमा पुग्न लामो समय हिँड्नुपर्छ । सडकको दुरावस्थाका कारण विभिन्न ग्रामीण इलाकामा जाने बाटोमा धेरै दुर्घटना हुने गरेको समाचारमा सुनिन्छ । लामो दुरीको गाडीहरू आएपनि कहिलेकाहीँ मात्र आउने ठाउँहरू पनि छन् नेपालमा।  वर्षायाममा सडकको अवस्था नाजुक हुँदै जाँदा गाडी चलाउन र कहिलेकाहीँ हिँड्न पनि गाह्रो हुन्छ । हामीले समाचारमा सुनेका छौँ कि त्यहाँ विद्यालय पुग्न बालबालिकाहरूले २ देखि ३ घन्टा हिँड्नुपर्छ । त्यस्तै गरी व्यवसायिक खेती गर्न चाहनेहरूका लागि सडककाे सुविधा हुन नसक्दा समयमा बजारमा  पुऱ्याउन कठिन हुन्छ । यातायातको उचित सुविधा नहुँदा धेरैले आफ्नाे बारीमा उत्पादन नभएका  बाली बेच्न नसकेकाले त्यहाँका बाली नजिकैका गाउँमा बेच्न बाध्य हुन्छन् । जसले गर्दा पर्याप्त नाफा पनि हुँदैन । उनीहरूलाई जीवनयापन गर्न पनि धाैधाै भएकाे हुन्छ। कोही बिरामी भएमा सडकको अवस्थाका कारण एम्बुलेन्स आउन लामो समय लाग्छ । अधिकांश ग्रामीण क्षेत्रका मानिसहरूको अवस्था उस्तै छ । उनीहरूसँग यातायातको उचित सुविधा हुँदैन । ग्रामीण क्षेत्रमा यातायातको उचित सुविधा नहुनुको मुख्य कारण सडकको अवस्था पनि हो । धेरै ठाउँमा नियमित रूपमा सार्वजनिक सवारी साधन नहुँदा हरेक क्षेत्रमा समस्या सिर्जना भएकाे छ । हामीले यी समस्याहरूको समाधानको लागि सोच्नुपर्छ। 

सबैभन्दा पहिले सडकको अवस्था सुधार गर्नुपर्छ । प्रत्येक गाउँमा दैनिक बढीमा २ वटा सार्वजनिक यातायातकाे सुविधा हुनुपर्छ । बालबालिकाको विद्यालय जाने खर्च निःशुल्क हुनुपर्छ । मानिसहरूलाई आवश्यक परेकाे समयमा मद्दत गर्नुपर्छ। समस्या नआओस् भनेर ग्रामीण क्षेत्रका जनतालाई पनि विभिन्न कुराबाट सहजीकरण गर्नुपर्छ । अतः गाउँघरमा यातायात र सडककाे व्यवस्थापनका लागि सम्बन्धित सराेकारवाला सबैले समयमा नै अध्ययन, अनुसन्धान र नियमनकारी भूमिका निर्वाह गर्नुपर्छ ।

न पाउँछु याे ठाउँमा बाेल्न 
न त आफ्नाे कुरा राख्न 
बाँधिएकाे जस्ताे लाग्छ 
आफ्नै ठाउँमा बस्दा पनि

के सधैँ बाँधिनु पर्ने म ??
कहिले हाेला आफ्नाे कुरा पाेख्न पाउने ?
कहिले म आाफ्नै देशमा खुलेर बाेल्न पाउने ?
कहिले हाेला मनकाे कुरा खाेल्दा डर नलाग्ने ?

अरू देशमा  हरपल  देख्छु 
मनकाे कुरा निर्धक्क राखेकाे 
चराजस्तै रमाउँदै डुलेकाे

विकास भएकाे मेराे देश, देख्न चाहान्छु
फेरिएकाे मेराे देश, देख्न चाहान्छु 
सबैले पाएकाे अधिकार देख्न चाहान्छु 
तर,
कहिले हाेला हामीले पाउने अधिकार !!!!!!
कहिले हाेला हामीले पाउने अधिकार !!!!!!
 

My life has revolved around uncertain things. I wish I could color combine my stripes again. The dark clouds have surrounded my life again and I need to color those clouds by hook or by crook. I always did my best and in these years I learned that a dollar earned is far more than five pounds. These all things made me look forward to life rather than looking back at my failure.

I have been an average kid since childhood. The kid who was confident about herself who used to feel confident while dancing. But the confident kid never felt confident due to some bully and favoritism done by her teacher. She never got a chance to perform on parents’ day even though she was best at dancing. From nursery to grade 4 she never got one opportunity to perform in a single parents’ day nor in sports day. The confident kid never enjoyed going to school and never enjoyed her childhood. She never got grandparents' love and she does not know what grandparents love is. She grew up wishing to get some attention from someone from her family but she never did. She just learned to accept reality and move forward. She also learns to lose and also to enjoy winning. She had one person in her life that she used to love the most but she ended up losing her too and now she is in a better place called heaven. She was just learning to enjoy her life even though her life is full of tangled ropes. She never knew what love is. She just knewed to cry on her own shoulder when she is sad and to know that there's no shame in tears and it holds the power to earn some new energy. She was a person who never stayed away to learn. She used to solve mathematical problems whenever she felt low. She tried to give up a lot of time but she knew that for every bad thing there are good things and to never lose hope. She never said she has been suffering from anxiety or depression, she just knew that she needs to move forward in life rather than suffering and being lost in them. Not getting love and attention made her mentally and physically strong. Since her childhood she has not even had a friend. She was all alone, no one even not a family member on her side. No one to be her crying shoulder even knowing that he has been suffering a lot rather than helping her they bullied her even more.

Those bullies made her stronger. She found herself drowning in the lakes. The water was cold but she was calm. Trying her best to deal easily and calmly with all the problems rather than overthinking. She didn’t follow the crowd when everyone was getting on with the struggle. She was in peace with her loved one in the heavens, a piece of her heart, her mother, in heaven. Life is full of struggle and she knew that her whole struggle was a learning phase.
 

शुक्रबारकाे दिन थियाे। मेराे सपरिवार शुक्रबार बेलुका चन्द्रागिरि बस्न जाने कुरा भयाे । हामी सपरिवार शुक्रबार बेलुका त्यहीँ गएर बस्याैँ । हामी बाटाेमा पनि रमाइलाे गर्दै गयाैँ । हामी चढ्ने ठाउँ नजिकै पुगेपछि हामीले हाम्राे गाडी तलै पार्क गऱ्यौँ र हामी सबै केबुलकार चढेर हामी मन्दिरबाट हाम्राे हाेटेल १५/२० मिनेट टाढा थियाे । हामी गाडीबाट गयाैँ । हामी हाेटल पुगेर एकछिन हाम्राे बस्ने काेठामा आराम गऱ्यौँ । त्यसपछि मात्र हामी बाहिर घुम्न गयाैँ । हामीले त्यहाँ साह्रै रमाइलाे गऱ्यौँ  । हामीले हामी बसेकाे हाेटेलभन्दा बाहिर नै खाना खायाैँ । खाना खाएपछि अबेरसम्म बाहिर नै बसेर रमायाैँ । केही समयपछि मात्र हामी बस्ने काेठातर्फ लाग्याैँ । रमाइला कुराकानी गरेर बस्याैँ । हाेटलवालालाई जुस मगायाैँ । त्याे पनि खायाैँ । यसाे घडी हेर्दा त रातीकाे १२ बज्न थालिसकेकाे थियाे हेऱ्योँ। त्यसपछि हामी आआफ्नाे काेठामा सुत्न गयाैँ ।

पछिल्लाे दिन बिहानै उठ्याैँ । मन्दिर दर्शन गर्न गयाैँ । दर्शन गरेर हाेटेलमा आयाैँ । हामीले खाजा खायाैँ । खाजा खाएकाे केही समयपछि पाैडी खेल्याैँ । पाैडी खेल्दाखेल्दै बिहानकाे ११ बजेकाे पत्तै पाइएन । त्यसपछि  खानेकुरा मगाएर रमाउँदै खायाैँ । अनि विभिन्न तरिकाले फाेटाे खिच्याैँ, रमायाैँ । हामी बसेकाे हाेटेलबाट काठमाडाैँ उपत्यकाकाे रमणीय दृश्यावकाेलन गर्न साह्रै रमाइलाे हुने रहेछ । केही समय मज्जाले काठमाडाैँ उपत्यकालाई हेऱ्याैँ अनि रमायाैँ र अर्काे पटक पनि अवश्य आउने निर्णय गऱ्यौँ  । कस्ताे अचम्म ठाउँ रहेछ । माैसम पनि समय समयमा परिवर्तन भइरहने रहेछ । उत्तिबेरमाइलाे अनुभूति भयाे । दिन ढल्किदै गयाे । घर फर्किने बेला भयाे । मलाई भने आज पनि यतै बसे हुन्थ्याे भन्ने मनमा लागिरहेकाे थियाे तर घरमा फर्किनै पर्ने थियाे ।  हामी घर फर्किने बेला सबैले आइसक्रिम खायाैँ । गाडीमा चढ्याैँ र घरतिर लाग्याैँ । घरसम्म पुग्दा हामी सबै थाकेका थियाैँ तर पनि मेराे मानसपटलमा भने  त्यहीँ चन्द्रागिरि र त्यहाँबाट देखिने मनाेरम दृश्यमात्र नाचिरहेकाे थियाे । चन्द्रागिरिकाे त्याे पारिवारिक भ्रमण मेराे लागि त अविस्मरणाीय नै भयाे ।