Written by: Sohana Ale Magar - 25016, Grade X
Posted on: 13 October, 2022
I don't know what's going on with me, but I know something is wrong, but I can't find what it is. I was not like that. I was the type of girl who was preoccupied with her own thoughts. Nowadays, I hear many bad things about myself. And I would like to think about others before, but nowadays I am not like that anymore. I don't care what others think about me; nothing matters to me. It only matters how I am for myself and I am perfect for myself. And that is what people call attitude, but I call it self-respect. I heard that I was the reason behind something, that I was someone's bully. I don't know what I have done to them, but if I have done something wrong, I'm sorry. Nowadays, I only care about myself. I think about myself. I give time to myself. I am finding myself nowadays. Nothing will happen by thinking about others. Thinking about myself can change me. I stopped caring about others because I didn't have time to care for myself. What would I do by caring for others? I stopped thinking about others. I don't give a damn what other people think of me. I also stopped making others happy. I was not happy with myself. How could I make others happy? I learned that we can't always make someone happy because after we stop doing something for them, we automatically start to feel bad for them. If you can do it for yourself, I am changing myself day by day. I am learning to be happy with myself and I don't have any regrets about my past. If someone says something bad about me, I don't feel bad or I don't care about them because I know I am right in my own way. I stopped believing in others. I have many trust issues. I used to share my problems with everyone, but I stopped sharing my problems because no one could feel my problems. They tell me that you are the "lady boss." How can it happen to you? I know you are joking, but they used to tell me that, and I felt really bad. I used to share my problems with them, hoping I could get some solutions, but I always felt alone with their answers. Nowadays, I usually keep each and every problem to myself because I want to find the solution to my problems by myself. I am happy that I am changing myself because I can now learn that I should love myself more than others because no one is more important than myself. I am slowly learning and evolving, and I hope better things are in store for me.
