Written by: Krituka Sapkota - 25005, Grade X
Posted on: 07 July, 2022
“I, Mia Shrestha stand here today not to give a motivational speech but to share the story of my life that I have been hiding and I think I am ready to let you all know this part of my life. A particular story I am really grateful for. This is my first time sharing this story with anyone else. So here it goes. I always knew I was different from others. My friends always talked about developing feelings for the opposite genders but never for the same one or both genders. I developed feelings for both genders so I thought something was wrong with me and I had some issues but I was too scared to talk to anyone about it or ask anyone for help. I thought if I ever told any of my friends about it they would laugh at me and call me “weird”.
I was too curious so one day I googled it and found out that nothing was wrong with me and I was just a part of a community where there are a lot of people who are like me, the LGBTQ+ community. I found out I was bisexual, an individual who likes both genders. I was happy that I finally got answers to all my questions through google and it gave me the joy to learn more and more about the LGBTQ+ community. Once while talking to my friends during lunch break, somehow we landed on the LGBTQ+ topic and my friends seemed to be really supportive and had a lot of knowledge about it. So I decided to come out to them as they were the ones I trusted the most once and I was surprised by how supportive they were about it. It was the first day of 10th grade and surprisingly a new girl came to our school. The moment I saw her hazel brown hazel eyes, her waist long black hair. She was wearing a long blue bodycon which complimented her body perfectly and she looked gorgeous in it. I felt like I had never seen anyone as beautiful as her. I went to her and introduced myself and she told me her name was Alisha Neupane. Later on, I learned that she was also part of the community which made me ecstatic. I wanted to confess my feelings toward her but was too scared about it. Six months later I still had a crush on her and we got closer in those months and I gathered all my courage to confess my feelings. Surprisingly she reciprocated my feelings. Eventually we began dating, we were young but it felt right. 6 months passed and we were happier than ever. We told our friends about it and they supported us too. But right after giving SLC things started going downhill. She became distant and rude, and I felt like she got annoyed with me. One day she came to me and told me that she was pretending to be a part of the LGBTQ+ community and all this was a joke. She made 6 months a joke. I was completely shattered and heartbroken. Of course we broke up. We blocked each other and became strangers but with a lot of fun memories together. A week later my friend sent me a screenshot of a picture of her holding hands with a girl in which she had written the caption “My love forever and ever.” I was shocked to see it but somewhere in my heart knew that it would happen so I ignored it. I moved on slowly but surely. I graduated from high school and joined a university. One Saturday I was chilling at my house when I received an envelope from Alisha. It was her wedding card. I was happy for her but somewhere debating if I should go or not but I remembered the time when we had promised each other that no matter what we would always be there for each other at their happiest times. So I decided to go. She looked different but pretty. She was the most beautiful bride I had ever seen. When she saw me, she was shocked. It was extremely visible on her face that she did not expect me to be there. She would have not expected me to be there as she did not come to even see me off as I moved to my dream university. It was hard seeing her getting married to someone else but deep down I knew she was happy and that made me happy. She is now happily married. Whereas I got married to an amazing woman named Maria who loves me very much. We are even planning to adopt kids. We have been married for 2 years and I am really happy. Thank You”
This was the first time she came out to the world. No one knew that she got married to a girl as they had court marriages. Only people from her close family and friends knew about this secret. She now felt like a huge burden had come off her as now she can freely walk around calling Maria her wife and holding hands without thinking about what other people would think as she was a public figure to be more clear a public speaker.
