Written by: Yureka Adhikari - 29049, Grade VI
Posted on: 29 June, 2022
Friends! I shout and scream,
Whether I have them or not, teardrops leave with a storm.
Never thought that I would cry and scream over my life,
But here I am.
Tears all over my notebooks,
Blood stains of the times they’ve stabbed me and left me with a heavy heart.
Who ever said that I’m fine on my own?
Maybe on the first look,
But not at all, never from the start.
The flood I’ve held is now breaking the damm,
The bricks have started to break,
I just wanna be in peace in friendships without wanting to cut my hand,
Ever making them was my biggest mistake.
They all leave hurting me more every time,
But I can’t stop. I need them to survive.
I can’t be left alone with my mind,
No, it feels like I’m dying when I am.
I just wanna rewind,
Not a single happy memory ever enters my mind.
It feels like I’m failing life because I’m broken the second I feel fixed.
Making a new friend is the biggest risk.
I just wanna not care,
My love-hate relationship with “true friends” kills me more as I just can’t keep my mind quiet but can’t shake the feeling that I’m only born to die.
I can’t not stare,
Into the distance without feeling betrayed and stopping the tears until I can go,
somewhere no one can see me cry.
