Written by: Alisha Tripathi - 21128, Grade XI
Posted on: 11 March, 2020
I hated what I saw in the mirror, this is what I thought, “she is boring, she is not good, she’s weak.” I had so many negative thoughts about myself and I believed them even though it didn’t come from them it came from myself and I think that’s what made it worse but now the lesson that I have learned is tell yourself that you are beautiful, strong and independent and whatever you want to do in your life is okay because you’re the captain of your life and whatever way you want to go you can go that way, bring people that believe in you. For me beauty is not what attracts your eyes but your soul because outer beauty fades away with your age. The place where you can be young forever is your soul. No scars can stop you from being beautiful until and unless you choose to be yourself don’t let others prospective hurt your inner peace. You’re going to feel way better once you start valuing yourself. You are uniquely you and you are worthy even if you don’t feel like it because change takes time and it will change. The relationship that you have with yourself is the most complicated because you can’t walk away from yourself. You have to deal with every flaw. You have to find a way to love who you are even when you are disgusted with yourself. Never try to compete or compare yourself with anyone because everyone has their different path just focus on making yourself better which doesn’t mean you have to be positive all the time it’s unrealistic. You are allowed to feel like you’re overwhelmed with sadness. You are allowed to feel that you are an inch away from giving up. What matters most is that you stay real and hopeful and that you don’t stop fighting for what you believe. Too often teens with mental illness are dismissed as ‘teenagers’ , women as ‘emotional’ and men told to ‘man up’. We deny our problems but that’s not the solution because you and your feelings matter. It's normal to have days when you just don’t like the way you look but also cherish days when you think you look good. You have no control over what people think you are. So don’t worry about it. If they want to hate some fictional version of you existing in their mind, let them. Don’t exhaust yourself winning over people you can’t win over. You spend most of your time in your head thinking so, make it a nice place to be in. Start pointing out what you love about yourself rather than hating what you don’t. Look at yourself with a lens of acceptance. No matter how expensive clothes you wear, how beautiful you look people are just going to remember how you treated them. Just a simple reminder to those who are struggling for their dream, do not for a second forget your worth. You are worthy of love even if what other or your confused thoughts believe. Today might be a bad day. Tomorrow as well. But it won’t determine the life you were destined for. You are beautiful and you matter.
